You get up in the morning after a safe and fair amount of rest and
you find yourself telling yourself .. ‘No .. not getting up today, not
going to do anything that is expected of me to do, not doing anything
..’ and then something pushes you out and before long the world is ready
to be conquered ! It was one of those days … today !
I think its all in the mind … naah … such a cliched remark … its many
things coming together. Responsibility, commitment, the need to do or
else and giving in. The first three are somewhat normal, natural, but
the last ..’giving in’ is perhaps the most valid and valuable.
What does it feel like to give up ..?
A sense of defeat, of not being
able to perform, of allowing the mind and body to dictate to you. There
have been many occasions in our lives when we have felt so. There is
abject decision to withdraw. It is that self feel that we have gone
beyond what we could have done or achieved, or are at a stage when we realize that we are unsuited for the part. Unsuited for the part, could
be a wrong decision, one that could have been thrust upon you in
circumstances beyond your control. In such cases it is best to be honest
with one self. Accept the wrong decision and give in.
There was a moment in my life when I had to face such a condition. Realizing the need to stop, I expressed it. Some of the elders agreed
with me and decided for me to leave, but my Mother was different .. she
said that we should complete the job, get victorious and then if it was
needed to leave, then leave … but right now, it is a non issue … Guess it
was the Sikh blood in her speaking up !! I followed what she expressed,
won and then gave it up !
I do not look back upon it as something that I gave in to. I look
back upon it as having gone in won and then retired. I think it would
sign in as sheer pluck, advocated by my Mother, similar I would imagine
of that Gogte College Of Commerce, Belgaum, boxing episode which I had written about
earlier in one of my Blogs.
Failure or its acceptance is nothing to be ashamed of, happens
to all of us, but it is the effort made before it that gains importance.
Did we put in our best, or did we succumb to effort ! The satisfaction
of such is beyond all else ..
There is great appreciation and applause for the winner yes,
but the recognition for the loser is somehow that has that special
something ..
This does not by any stretch of imagination suggest that we need to go for that ‘special something’ .. !!!
The Sunday friends meet was awesome … with many HR friends in the
congested and cramped crowds, bearing the heat and the push and shove.
Ah ! Not recommended but what can one do .. it has now become a
permanent joyful occasion for me .. and today the beautiful girl, Neha Kukreja, came out
too .. and the look of extreme bewilderment when she stood on the podium
was priceless !!
After a while after she had been taken in, they were
going out again for dinner, and the first look she gave when she came
out was to check if the crowds were still there .. ha ha ha ha ..
Many perhaps know of the condition of ‘Bijlee’, the sick
elephant that had collapsed on the street of the city, and all the
trouble that NGO’s were taking to revive it and look after it, with a
little help from friends .. her weight was the problem first, getting
her up needed a crane and to keep her up the straps around her needed to
be in place. But despite all the effort taken she passed away this
morning. Really sad. They are unable to speak of their problems, and it
is quite depressing to see this majestic animal in such condition ..
We now have another elephant, Lakshmi in trouble. She is ill
too and we are doing the best we can through monetary help to get her
well. Let us hope she survives. These are domesticated elephants, and
quite shockingly are used by their masters to beg on the streets !!
Really sorry state of affairs ..
I must retire now with those thoughts .. must gym in the morning ..
and importantly must take up the challenge for something new in the
morning …
Love to all …
Harish Nayak.
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