The warmth and reception of Chandigarh, Punjab and its wonderful people …
Rushing as ever to make it to the airport, to take my charter to Chennai, for the opening meeting of All India Auditor's meet in Chennai. A
smooth flight despite monsoon conditions, and on landing the turbulence
of the associates. A renewed passion of love and attention. Each time
it happens, it makes me wonder. And the eternal question .. will I be
able to return this affection some how. And if yes then how ?
I seek often in my moments of solitude, an answer to this ; of
reciprocation, of returning that which has been given to me with added
interest, but each time I fail. The chasing youngsters, students on their speedy
bikes that ride along dangerously, the smiles on the faces of the young manager's and auditors those have waited for hours for this one glimpse of seminar, over in a
second as we speed past, the masses of people that come and merely lend
their presence on the road, but on that one short sighting a wave of the
hand and namaskar followed by screams of delight on my response..!! So
humbling !!
And then on landing back within hours, a rush to meet the Manager's at Hotel room
for the Sunday commitment ! And entire day filled with the rapturous
applause and the adoration of hundreds of my countrymen. 90% of those Hr Manager's. I
am so grateful to the Almighty, to my Father and Mother, to those that
were responsible for my professional career, and never to forget those
who have stayed with me for the past 8 years of my time as an HR .
All that came by to me, came by yes, on effort and struggle and
ethics of work, but not without the providence of prayer and that
unknown force that strode along with me, and for that I shall remain
eternally indebted. I can look back on many aspects, on days gone by, on
incidents, events and happenings. But what really would it do to me or
for me, other than recall. Better to look at what may come tomorrow.
That shall have expectation, uncertainty, an unknown quality of immense
apprehension, of words and expressions that shall speak ‘how’, ‘where’
and ‘what’. That would be the novelty of an unseen tomorrow, not the
known quality of a mere remembrance.
I can remember for nostalgia, for narration, to recapture perhaps,
but it shall never possess the quality of the unknown and the unseen - a
charm of its own ! Better to live and exist for that moment of charm
than for that moment of nostalgia.
A meeting today later, welcomed a long standing misconception that
ruled the mind of the other and I was glad that a step was taken to
dismiss it and to encourage association and personal confrontation
rather than hearsay. Hearsay by the construct of its words is by itself
explanatory - ‘hear’ and ‘say’. You hear something and then you transfer
it by saying. Whether what is heard is correct or true or false is
never considered. Where and how it gets transferred by saying is also
under an umbrella of doubt. For me and for those that seek audience on
the issue, it shall always be ‘heard in one ear and out of the other’.
Face me, talk to me, direct and without distortion, unhesitatingly, and
that shall be reason for me to understand and believe.
Chinese whispers were built for those that had reason to occupy
themselves, because that is a business that is thriving enough on its
own. Who cares whether it affects the other or the other situation, the
deed for which someone may pride themselves in has been done. The
whisperer has moved on to the next whisper, and the ones that he
whispered to, have been left to assimilate the effects of it in earnest,
and finding it most oppressive to live and cope with.
Clear the issue once with truth and honesty and ruthless integrity.
Those that value the three aspects shall value the moment. Those that do
not, are going to be devoid of any of these recognized qualities,
qualities which I believe make you human, not a disgusting evil that
will eventually be avoided like the plague !
Those in the sphere of the public and of public attention, bear this
cross each day. Do not raise me to a pedestal, where I do not ever
belong, isolate me thereafter, become agents of mine on self accord,
deviate the minds of those that wish to communicate, take unofficial
charge as my keepers, conduct yourself in a manner which reeks of garlic
from every pore and claim the genuineness of it by drawing strength
from the fact that I shall never be able to discover the truth or the
fact. You shall only succeed in doing so for a while. Eventually you
shall face discard. Look forward to that day as your tomorrow, for it
shall come undoubtedly. The past shall merely remain as a remembrance,
the future will be devastatingly true and real. If you shall have the
courage to look forward to that tomorrow, you shall never ever indulge
in what you profess to do today !!
More and much more shall follow. But in due time. Do not expect the
one, to act in the way you would wish. If there is faith and trust and
integrity within, for the other, give time for them to react in their
way. In time and not necessarily the time you would wish, it shall
resolve with permanency - hopefully for all concerned !!
My love and attention and gratitude for all …
Regards
Harish Nayak
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